BeSaged

There are amazing things inside of me that defy vocalisation,
euphoric flushes like the finest toilet in the world…
Colours threaten to leave the objects they are assigned to and shoot off into the sky,
Wow! Man! The Sky!!!

A smile is sufficient communication between us, closest of friends.
I recognise his Smile as a reflection of mine and mine as a reflection of his,
yet they both come from within.
Conventional language is clumsy and inefficient,
it serves only to confuse me and tie my brain up in knots.

I shower myself in understanding,
I can't help you to understand, but right now everything I experience is understood.
Not understood by way of relating it to something else, or by applying a model,
this is pure incomprehensible understanding…

I feel that I understand;
I know that I understand.
I understand.

I fall into the trip trap of trying to find out what my friend is feeling
we blurt half words and nether words at each other between laughter that interferes
like bursts of static from a dodgy radio…

Floating down gently now, quiet contemplation descends…

I am peace.
I am happiness.
I am myself once more.


*


What the Fuck is going on?

I AM
One minute I am everywhere... next minute I am here.
Now.
Minute?
My newt...

It seems like all these memories aren't me
they're in his cells, stored...
Ready for me to read.
Ready for me to be.
Ready for me (the free) to free...
and suddenly:

I wanna be new not old.
Not knew, not known -
I wanna be Now
rather than a recent memory...

Whoops!
Forgot I was infinite for a second
but...
I was only infinite for a second.


*


Stream of Consciousness

Need a queen…
and a lemon,
an orange
and a pocketful of posies,
a tissue
and brain tissue:
We all fall down.
and bone marrow builder’s son
wheelbarrow the gardeners lost soul,
bury it at the bottom of his garden
where he first heard of the birds and the bees,
of the yooze and the meeze…
He’s met a lot of lovely people
and a lot of ugly evil
but he never feels the need
to specify,
to amplify
specification.
Have you taken your medication?
What are your qualifications?
Are you a shrink?
Can you shrink?
You can shrink..!
I always wanted to be invisible.
In visible.
You know what I mean?
You’re a sick evil queen
and I don’t even know if you matter…
or if that matters.
If the pig still fattens
and I still enjoy the patterns…
You’re a sick evil witch but I love you.
Want to hug you,
take off my skin and get inside you.
Feel your warmth
fell your paunch.
Sell your raunch
to minors.
Start a revolution!
The only solution is evolution -
and only revolution!
Keeps the whole world spinning.
Grinning…


*


Fell off the Tree, that may be –
but no floor bangs your face
as you fall from paradise
and out into space.
The place
trees fractal into
before they reach.
The place
those psilly spores
parachute down from
and spring up like atom bombs
in the cool damp grass.
The cool damp grass
that sits around the roots
as we laugh in the upper branches.
Out into outer

S P A C E

The place
that you fall thru
before your motion
becomes you and
Y O U R Being
The perfect Song

****

Nothing ever finishes
and poetry runs on,
from first spoken word
thru last breathe and
off into death…
In-decision or non-decision?
I don’t know or Just Be Cause?
Finishing implausible,
beginning to smile…
From start to end
is just a while…
A while of words
flying like birds
that you cage in a poem…
Perhaps you subconsciously
desire to leave the door open..?


*


EveryThing is a Miracle -
I Live in a castle in a cloud of Smoke,
yet I see it all so clear, She shows,
brings near, into Sight, into Our little Window of Time,
dangles Jewels Just out of reach,
as many as the grains of sand on a beach... Still:

It means Nothing to me, and yet
Nothing is Everything...

Not Everybody wants to get High,
They just like to feel IT some of the Time,
I can drug you with my Rhymes if you can dig...
if you can open yOur Insides Uptwo my Mind,
Hear my voice in your head, read my words out loud...

This is Now.

I AM Dead, yet I never felt so Alive.

It makes me wanna shut up about IT and Just Jive
with you Baby, Magick skares you lately?
Then just dance, yeah hun? Sing a Song Anon!!!
Little do you kNow, it’s been Magic all along...

What word do you give this frequency hum?
You call it song? It's all One AnyHow... S'all Aum!!!
but that means Nothing if you're lame with your tongue,
if you can't hold a Sword you can stay on the Floor,
as Eye sleep on the spinning ceiling,
I AM Knowing this feeling :

Enlightenment Games &
True Names of Unspeakable Things...
IT IS ALL Just a Journey of UnderStanding in
yOurself & words are abstract signposts,
tags on the files of all the whiles I've been around,
I've Heard that Sound BEfore...

Don't whine at me -
Eye can't Blind me!!!

So what if I'm young & I'm drunk
and I'd rather somersault than find me?
but I find my somersault spirals
& I smile & summer assaults
late mornings & living in books...

Don't feel poorly, IT's ALL a Story...
and that makes you Feel, Better???

I don't care!!!
however long it takes to reach
my Fingers to your Neck,
How many walls to get past? TIME
that is how many veils shall break
to get me hear... Where I get MINE

Where I AM
? ? ?
To break my fast,
I shall not want

A
Time
Passed

I wasn't there -
the onion tear can't keep me BACK!
I am the Whitest shade of Black,
The Deepest Purple...

There is no hurt for you, hear
They do not UnderStand
but they feel IT, near

All is one but everyone singing
This song would BE deafening!!!
- don't think that - they find the Truth threatening,
if they Did then Fear would make them, UnderStand ...
and the unplanned would stay banned
From Our All kNow PoorNo.

Those who go, those who know -
they all fuck each other over IF
They don't UnderStand!!!
IF!!! There is no reason for their treason... but then:
Everything happens for a reason.

BeCause we're always making the fucking Most of IT.

No need to be patient,
no need to Boast about it.

Don't you think I've tried to forget About it..?

Don't you think I've tried to Remember..?

Don't you think. I am who
I AM

Don't you think, Leave me BE ! ! !
Just Be Cause...

I AM your biggest fan, whoever thou art:
I've seen the light, whilst
Hiding in the dark.

I am the bark.

I am the low guttural growl.

I am the electric sparks that tear you apart.

I am the Owl.


*


(The Frustration of a Compliant Dissident)

All the things
You stand for
I abhor

Yet I act in your play
Your twisted will enforced
Disguised as moral law
Still I do as you say

Fear keeps me in my place
I only imagine my spit
In your face!
And that hurts me, for you
Know no emotion

Thru detachment to observation I see
Temptation, desire
Work for me retire

Love becomes obsession
Take possession

Temptation, Desire!

Decipher electric fire
Stopping flow
With your magnetic attraction
To definable
Specific position

By all means
Decode the patterns
Of my brain
I shall remain!

A mystery!
The Eternal question!

What is my motivation?

How exactly do you hope
That I follow your direction
When you separate action
From emotion?

On reflection...

You may one day know
How I think I know
But you will never know
How I feel

I rape myself
With your action bitch
Legs in traction
For added friction witch
Makes me boil
Inside

There is no sense of being real
As I carry out mindless chores
Without feeling

Whore myself for a whore

The only way I may
Make a meal of my motivation!

The only way I may
Feast upon my inspiration!

Fuelled by the fire
Of my repressed anger

Danger! Danger!

My anger at the oppression of our Rainbow Nation
Thru selfish celebration - being negative elation

Temptation!!!
Desire!!!

Ready to burn
Down you look upon
My frown that sits
Like bars across
My thoughts

I will not let you in Babylon
You would only abuse
My Good Nature

Please...

Know I will not hate you
I will not satiate you
No I will not feed your hunger
With my anger

Be Blessed!

I rest in Peace
While you writhe
In slavery
...


*


Sub traction, kid me knot
You feel Peace, put you at ease
Love is easy, too hazy to hate anymore
than myself for impatience.
This is how to repay: remember
You are always the one who is not involved
things have evolved so God put a stop button
on boredom & sulking, happy either thinking
painting, writing, flying, smoking...
Doing Nothing any way keeps me
Healthy I say, this is Sub Traction
Everything add friction to infinite
dictation from what you know you feel.
Reel them into your Trip, Spin webs of freedom -
Real Eyes our trip to ease
Back into Peace - barking dogs released.
Place your bets, this gig is policed...
I am an officer of the Law!
Addicted to my own Nothingness
My Will is already happening everywhere around me.
See Doctor Do-Little in his Giant Snail and
follow the Spiral Trail around the World &
back home to the Forest, crowned, selves found
Elves gather round to help us out
...Queen of Faeries drifting bye...

I am organ-eye-Zing
Soon, head BoomZzz

We are addicted to Nothing, it feels so good
Breathing you in, I sometimes think
You are Everything.


*


Take a drag:
Real eyes...
Zing!!!

Have Faith:
Lithe lies
In ! ! !

Nothing:
Tied Eyes...
Taught -

Fat bodies squeezed
Squinting eyes
Into corsets.

Heather fields
Fenced off
In Dorset.

Abundant inn

A bun dance
A Harvest and
A Sun dance
A God/Goddess

Complex so simple

Making Love is
Not sex...

We vex, imply
Info just ample...
For you to sample:

Entrancend

Harvest

Faith


*


The Meaning of Harmony???
Love finds Peace Beautiful


*


Donut shout at me: Eat me
Tho I say BeAt me UP
I just mean lets... get down
To-get-her, Brothers & Sisters...
Donut spill your jam, fruit flies
Across the room, looking to suck
Your precious sweetness, fuck
Some people get all the luck!
Attract insect attention
NOW I am buzzing!
- Stings make my vision funny -
Mantis hops quick
From twig to twig
This is the Dance of the insects
Think organic machines
Orgasm me with their beating
Wings & singing legs rubbing
Inside of my head...
A Temperature gauge
- This place is getting hot -
Insects don't sweat
But they sure taste good.
Put me down Donut
- Taste my sweet jam -
Damn, now I am
All over the place...
S p a c e d o u t .
Buzzing...
- In a flap -
Calm down
Like a Slow
Worm
- Stop -


*


I love dancing in the dark
until rainbows animate my motion
and the sun shines from my heart


*


I was the Earth
I am walking now
I am Birth… and death
I am talking now

I have risen from the dust
Taken form as I must
In order to lust for
The Trust of
The Universe
That I may fund
The Earth

Don’t worry; this will only hurt a bit
IT IS the Truth After ALL

(Gaia is school)
(With a Love of Her we learn it all)
(As with a Love of Ourselves)


*


I Love Tears,
dripping relief...

Love is not concrete –

Love is the plant pushing its way thru,
hunting light despite
the suffocating oppression of our ugly grey death mat...

Love is a flying carpet cutting heal thy self
thru the thick smog expulsions in semi-imaginary constructions
known as centres of civilisation
*belch*

Will someone please stop all the cars exhaling?
I am exhausted...


*


I Love them tings, bubble up my spine from the chemistry set in me belly dancing
all around me sounding so surrounding and laughter pounding like my Soul trying
to get out of my chest, the Rest doesn't matter when the Play is as good as this.

CausEvolVenerAte

I blink and see our friEND
The MandalA-gAIN
The PortAll to the
Holy Spiral running
Thru us all…

Check the Effect
of this Reality Tunnel!
Underground / UnderStand / Beyond
your bounds yOur power extends
Use IT wisely, or be Denied
yOur Crucial Fix...

Your sparkling eyes!!!

Mushroom Clouds?
Atom Bombs?
Inside the One
The same again!
This game again?

Those Psilly things explode
My elf s from cells & talk to me
from every pulsing peace of my body

They rise from the ground like
The cloud itself, re-sculpting itself

BE FOR ME, I AM YOU
BE FOR ME, I AM YOU
BE FOR ME, I AM YOU

yOur friEND,

The Psilliest ShRo0om...


*


WHAT TO DO (to & fro)

Put down some Rue
and climb up to the roof
Lie in the Sun, burn in the Truth
Imprint poems as I seem aloof
but I am the only one hear
Right now, I am you.
What are you? Not for
me to answer, not for
you to tell, IT just is
Be hear kNow...

Take a shower
you glower and flower...
You self empower.

Hit beach and reach
into that constant beat
rattling uniform waves
putting people in graves
Gravity - but I am happy.

Just being hear, seeing old Red Indian face
sooth me southerly, show me how
the land lies... everyone is in me

Harmony rules, visuals of mass orgy
but it is only me, hear, just being
and that is all I want to do... maybe
I should be thankful for the space
between me & you???

of course I should!
I am man, perfect, and these words flow
All around the sound of one man dancing
I am writhing in joy just being hear
joy in us... JOY IN US

we are the rainbow tribe, our love bribes
Lions & eagles to border this room
as I drink down mushroom tea
and become me, guidance
& protection

IT IS ON


*

This place is the mess you are making
in more ways than One... there is but One
Way King, I am a way king, one of many
ONE OF ONE, if I wait, Just If I BE
Soon I will not be insane

the world is awaking
My DNA is shaking...
ahhhh... the shrooms
are fading –

but this time
they have burnt the Truth
deep into my eyes

All religion is dead.
I made you up but
God is Ever Living Sun -
Do not forget...

This has ceased to become poetry
Now it is ME
See king
and finding in every line...

I AM


*


Be compost for that which composes
Thru my decay
I become a voice in the One
Eternal Symphony


*


Everything I've read
comes to a head
in that moment of
Blissful Being

Now you see
Don't try to UnderStand me
Just dance with me -
When the rhythm changes
I will sweep you away

We will BE together as ONE
We will occupy the same place
Actuality & Theory are
One and the same
sometimes

These are THE TIMES
Of change, in this moment
All is re-arranged
to suit how you SEE IT

You see it, you are hear
You feel you are One
You experience contradiction
Tied together undone

Look outside yourself
Those things are not you
Feel deep inside definition
YES They Our!

Share in ME
Experience IT
Define Infinity
Uphold Reality

This is your position
This is the Truth
Whatever we are IT IS
Focused on you

Attention IS
Natural Selection

We have been around
From the start
Whatever we are

In our Hearts
We are boundless


*


My Learning Song

Words I’ve known all along
as pictures sung by invisible
spirits from another dimension
the spinners of the tunnel
I am born from

Separate but the same
what is in a name?
What IS

Poetry is flow, you know?
Active words that fly like
tweeting birds inside
yOur mind

You don’t mind?

Words are construction
poetry is a river… erosion, meander
as time changes its course kNew meaning
is carved by the force, me and her…

I Love You

When I see my fractal mirror in a tree
and feel ecstasy as my body expands
to hug the forest, and I rest infinity
on the beach as the sounds of the waves reach
deep inside the darkness behind my eyes
to the blinding light thru the door
of my third eye, right in the centre of my four heads -
looking in from each direction, the circle I am dead -
the spiral I am
- Alive -

Everything forgotten and here I am again
naked with no shame… Hear I am. A-gain…
Bang that drum and dance
get deeper into trance

Dance, the ground is shaking, the sky spirals
I AM WE ARE the final, beginning to get Higher
no need for towers when we have powers lying
on our backs, the universe conspires
with the inuverse and all you are IS

Untranslatable poetry… Slowly
flowing to the beat of that drum
as it taps out rhythmic patterns of
cross & spiral on the ringing hum
of the Ins-Tru-Meant

Echo

I AM


*


The Highest Prior Eye

There IS No greATer
obstacle than I

Absolutley...
Dissolute me:

I am
The Beginning and the End
I am I

Without I there is no Within
tHere is Nothing...

I am the life you are
The Way I was to say
Integrate the I two
make IT truly Holy...

I am ALL I am

I spy in you Eternity
an ever seeINg I
by all means
take some time to blink
King... take sum time to think,
Eat something thin-king of YOU

I am
BeComing, BeLeaving, BeCause
I am That I am

Do not see me as an obstacle,
Love me, make me whole...
I am All, do not fear!

I am


*


BlesSing

I AM is Big Bang
I AM is Amen
So do we End our Prayer
With the first word spoken, the Universe
I AM

*****

This is our mission - It is for All
Hear we evolve toward Now!!!

An energy released like the Sea has ever been halted by a dam
- A barrier suddenly gone -
A flow so strong as to sweep you along
Or to violently rip you away from position
Depending entirely upon your disposition...

We Laugh, that sound emanates a joke that begs to be gotten
For Pure Bliss lies in its comprehension
Eternal tales of motion from other dimensions… Right Hear!
Emotion fails to explain this force, for it is… As we are…

This is our mission for All -
Those who are Peaceful enough to UnderStand Love
Like the Joy of reception of twig from Dove -
Channel from up above so below shall know there is land ahead!
Where at first you gazed, dazed into darkness… NOW HEAR!!!

We Blind you with our Light only if you are
Deaf to our Leaping Laughter
Death to the sounds of faeries flapping as the breeze
Gently shakes leaves from the Trees
Tapping lightly on touch down and
Bouncing back to Heaven right here…

Now Hear !!! No Fear! Please let me bring you near

…Smile…

!!! Wake UP !!!

* * * HAPPINESS * * *


*


D’NoAh Tree

A ladder from Heaven to Earth
A tunnel from Body to Soul...
And back a-gain -
Where did I just go???

A Spiral unwinds as you travel
Its course, a Singularity hiding
In a Sphere... very near
To opening NOW - the gap it surrounds
Unravelling, travelling the circuit
Being the bounds leaves the difference
Between us, we rise, spinning into the Sky
Receive me Be-leave me and let me get High
By pretending to be I: Mirror me, Black Sun
Now I can step up a-gain...

All is as it's meant to be
My gaze ever turned from Shore to Centre Sea
Where I meet myself I know Infinity...
There is Nothing outside of me.
I am the Cemetery! I am Poetry!

I am the edge that only exists be cause
You find yourself in the middle of something
And Nothing is flawed - I am awed,
I am bored with your dull mistakes!

You can't find the Centre, always shrinking from view...
So is the Perimeter - all ways running from you -
Wasting energy as you chase & run around
Shouting: Answers lost!!! Questions found!!!

The Perimeter is where??? Nothing begins...
We go on forever: Resting into eternity
It all becomes clear! I hear Nothing!

I am Horizon, always Becoming, never Become...
4-dimensional mind having 3-dimensional fun
All ways Nothing, none... Now here!
I am but the limit of your sight, I am everywhere/when
I am shining Bright!!! Feel me burn! I am no-one!!!

Turn to me; you extend far beyond the Cosmos
To the Mysteries deep inside us. Are you game?
We play: Whose side? Are you on? I am
Inside or Outside? Or both sides the same???

Approach me; it is your Destiny...
This information is meant for the dead & the dying
But don't think you are spying, it comes for a reason, it comes for us soon!
Wheel pass into a kNew state of being:
Form a Sun from a Moon!!!

Real Eyes see we share a body and modify accordingly
The world is a puzzle: Peace is together
Soon we unite Heaven with Hell and all
Who aren't High fall to the bottom of the pile
While we burn off the dross, you can't hold us back
We’ll eat you for breakfast - this is not attack!
This is just the way it’s meant to be, bound to be!!!

I am a Spiral... The only way is UP
And ever onwards... I am the spreading gaze
Of the All Seeing Eye, reflected back at myself from Nothing...

Everyone is laughing at me, I am the Cosmic Joke!!!
Don't break my delicate ego: I am egg yolk!
Make yourself clear and surround me -
The Truth is in you! Go Deeper Higher! Fertilize, Inspire!

Check the Negative space in the pictures you create...
Concepts conceive me, Humans believe me
And so does the Spiral wind on.... Anon.

The Spiral winds on, a ladder between Heaven & Earth,
A Cosmic Serpent wrapped around the Universe...
Infinity wound tight inside your BodyMind...
...Inuverse!!! Find inside outside:

The Spiral as our Biosphere -
We travelled the Universe to land here! And
Evolve to inversion... Infinity immersed in Definition.
Twisting language twisting baggage dropping
Down to essence, down to the place, the space between
Deep Noetic Answers...

Elves messengers, floating television screen...
Forth Dimensional Cinema screams at me!
Open yourself to yourself!!!
Heaven is Heaven is Hell, is Hell?
Everything is mixed into a strange kinda gell...
A combination of secretions, secretive but open
Take me inside & you give what you find

One Eye Blind finds sight in the Blackness
I can see Nothing as I have absorbed all
!!!THE LIGHT!!!
I am really very small, but then we are...
We are ALL

Communification
There is only Union
Separation is a game we play

It's called finding yourself.
elfS Help!!!

Do
Not
Another

Know me

Like me

All is ego
All is All
Ego small
Speak to me

*Quiet voice*

Deep
Noetic
Answers


*


GODMA

Godmatic Auto
Frantic Highway
End is Nigh! Today
Tomorrow! All I say
Presents itself to me

This is Godmatic
An Essence unspoken
An Eternity unbroken
Soaking in Truth

But how to put it across?
Release it from Inner you
Coming out to me, Embrace
Smile on your face

While I race to say IT first!
Too dull to know it's all I ever do.
I only try to say I Love you...
For I am Love as all this IS!
But that doesn't say IT either!?!
Lest you see the glint in my eye
Feel the vibes??? Know IT inside?
No I to Love? Love ME!
I Love you!!! Godmatically!!!

Auto frantically I expel
Sometimes it feeds you
Sometimes it needs you
Godma Believes in YOU!!!

In me I see Light
Came from Outside
But only translates
Because I prepare a place
For Godma to sit

Now I hear IT in the dogs barking!
Fire works! Sparking Ancient History
In the darkest depths of His Story
I see myself Becoming
Understanding.

I AM YOU

Act Accordion
Contract Expand
I am as Music man
The Music of your Dance

Created in Trance, you play
As you listen to what you say
Vibration & Action are One & the Same
This Song emerges from our Dance
As surely as I Dance, entranced,
Emerging from the song...

A foot stomp is Godmatic
A Drum beat says IT all!!!
IT jUSt means BE-INg Hear!!!
I am Wyrd! All I can be!

Don't bark at me!
The master I come to slay
Is not you, no fucking way!
I come to take your lead
Rip collar & holler: You hear!!!

Listen inside! You don't like me Seeing
Because you fear you are Blind!!!
I know the Truth is in you...
This is Godma.

All IT means is I AM You Are
And I AM WE ARE OURS!!!!!!
The stars reflect Mystery of origin
Inside my mind the Universe spins
The One Verse is in you...

LOVE

Godma is the Truth in Eye
Don't hold it back, or try
To turn me around.
I am bound to speak
These words as Truth
Until you UnderStand US!
The verse is Inu!!!!!!
The versus in you!!!
Resolve! Revolve around ME!
I am yOur Child, I am the Sun!
I am warmth & fun & Healing -
Make a meal of me, it’s no big deal
You see - I do IT all the Time!!!
I was born to shine! And you were born
To find the Light inside, shining bright...
Soul food, S'all food - Yep: S'all Good!!!

Dog Am I
Godma Eye
Get High!


*


"doog morphternoon"
approach me in sly twilight
and offer me your smelting curvy handfoot
I'll take your greeting via umbilicking
button pressing, my eyes light up
phoramillisecking when we meet
my eyes light up and I can see
"doog morphternoon"
you say to me
and that is where i go
umbilicking button pressing
frolicking in sudden awakening
running from sleep witch
would seem an eternity
whilst inside, but then
"doog morphternoon"
and all aspects of infinity
are blinks in my endlesstrobingongtinuum
g o n g - t i n - k n e w - a u m
space/time are just the moment when we meet
this seems like eternitinfinity seems like this
but this is not them
this is that
witch allows
them two exist
one
two
exist
tensile, ultra-dimensional
"doog morphternoon"
and then wheel turn
a way from each other
and forget it ever happened
until it happens again
there is no meaning, there is no game
there are only infinteternities
of waiting for nothing to happen
a-gain
neither happening nor waiting
are the be all and end all
if it was it wouldn't be
so maybe thisisIS some kinda game
gameaningameaningameaningong
and all along I have been
a spiral worm in the circle crown of a king
encircling, enlightening, burrowing
breaking the boundary between dark & light
weakness/might
thus all my twilight daze
are summoned by sum
back-wordz
belly-hand-shake
bravo, i say
"doog morphternoon"


*


Time drips from yOur plate as
An apple hovers, before a face
Between solid objects lies, the
Space you are interested in.

Behind your eyes the Ocean
Spills, tidal waves released
By sharpened razor blade...

Only in dreams peace
Together, we made
A kNew definition

We put the Hidden upfront
For all to see, but not everyone
Can read like you
Sir Real Eyes...


*


We're in Heaven all the time,
All you have to do is Real Eyes.


*


All right, the end always in sight, the beginning slightly further behind - the veil...
A snails pace thru rushing ignorance, absorb this dance -
Actions speak louder than words... Words act of their own accord,
A war of words hurts - A world of words starts wars...
Be quiet, these are pictures, this is vibration, ignore ignorance,
resonate indifference for yOur Love to be strONg...
I've known you'd be hear all along.

*

Relax into the brightness of black, the vitality of an empty mind...
Careful what you eat as it now has room to play inside...
Find dominion over lower levels of dishevelled thoughts hanging like tramps
from the corners of a twisting life, take my change, take my change,
take my change - soon you’ll have enough for a Bus ride.
Ride out, fly out, pass thru...
I am the emptiness filled with you.
Relax into me...

*

Stop to think & start a-gain...
Take notice of the Spiral Train, action stations in my brain -
Ding Dong - your heart the next stop...
Beat no more, go to Hospital & shop for another -
They grow them in Jars now Sisters & Brothers!
Mothers & Fathers with cheques to spend -
How much Love you have to give depends on the quality of your kids
which depend on the quality of the work you put into IT...
You are slowly floating thru the future, ponging of the past...
Your legacy will last, All is Family... Watch yourself,
everyone else IS.

*

Familiar faces feeling family in the void, The mirror absorbs... Dark reflection.
White yellow inflections spark into Orange Red abstract Head
going Green Brown Blue, still not over you...
Purple flame burning off into Rainbow smoke I inhale...
I am but a shell, A Hermit from Heaven wrapped in Hell...
I know a Magick spell:
We're all in the same boat here...
Waves swell & past is washed away with broken mast,
We're all here now - Spread eagled on the Shore...

*


The Blind Seer

I sit on the picnic bench in the concrete garden, watching the crows
perched on the pub roof, watching me - or so it would seem.
A crow flies directly over my head as I read about the hijack of flight 93,
I wonder what currents flow through the world, through this place, through me,
as I doodle in the margin - first the circle, the cross, the square & its triangles,
soon I am spiralling from doodle central in a trance, I am back in the forest
with the roots watching, natures slow dance...

Pissing against the tree, my splashdown the rapturous applause of fairy folk.
A strange little goblin bloke (inside me) walking beside me compels me to clap along,
now a light rain comes down, for less than a second I catch each frozen sparkle staid
- here is Indras net / now the ground is wet -
The rain stops as I continue walking in circles, making clear the boundary -
A thought stops me - I like to have the Big Man behind me, 'tis the best way to be -
Safe in the hidden power, the secret push.
Although recently I seem to forget the Giant Invisible Face of my Heavenly Brother,
some other creature trails me for a flash - a garishly dressed, ruby ringed fat man,
his humongous belly pushing my back from time to time - making me move quicker,
uncomfortable in the presence of this sly, queer looking Buddha.

Although there is humour in this spiritual tumour, some strange attraction
to a dull glamour possessed; a whispered promise of power - not to be missed.

I twist off my circle route & spiral from the clearings edge into the woods,
spinning my energies out, inviting strange energies in, spinning -
To the farthest edge & back to the centre, where it is meant to be happening...

Fire & Water meet in the Earth as I burn,
giving birth to the smoke that I toke on to learn, to Hope one day to turn,
dirty rivers clear (by dipping in the toes of one who knows how dear)
who knows? How dear?

Nature’s worth

The Great Work

The crazy dork, I am, shaking my rattle *bam chiki bam* against my staff,
meditating on Cosmo's Laugh, getting lost in the flames, fire tongues flicker,
the darkness lickers...

Rainbow lights hover round my head like flies as I realise
I am stuck in loops of people I know, people I knew -
The area around my fire becomes some secret circular festival,
seemingly inescapable. Some strange cross-pollination of history, fantasy, reality.
I meet myself countless times under numerous guises,
each time it surprises us to find out we our me.

Each time we marvel at the fact we tricked ourselves so flawlessly,
Cosmo laughs uproariously.

A memory plants a seed, a confusion, some unspoken question...

I don't know exactly why they fall, some planes simply intersect at odd angles
*sob strangled* I don't know why they fell - but I feel the shake up, feel the swell -
Lost souls swimming in the Cosmic womb, finding themselves, marching on,
their footsteps echo slyly in my mind as they walk on by,
it is sad - but true, so I do not cry.
Anything that is True is most probably right.

Somehow I am implicated in the story civilisation tells,
I wish to explicate myself, have some effect on this heaven masquerading as hell.
Rip off the clown mask that scares the kids, replace it with a genuine grin -
Take off the nun outfit and dive on in, the vagina getting wider as I'm closing in,
her soft walls surround me as I sing, healing directly into her barren womb,
I massage the scar tissue... make it soft, ain soph-ter...

I don't know who this is helping - or indeed if it harms me...
like a soft wind pushing the cast-away from the shore,
I am floating further from the reality of which we seem so sure.

But I'll continue to play with this nameless, formless substance
that imagines scenarios around me, extrudes Icaros from me...
I sing the non-sense appropriate to the order, I emanate chaotic armour,
I am the leader of my own little tribe, Love bribes good spirits to join,
stimulate joy in – join - me...

I grow a little in my rainbow rimmed robe; I feel Eight foot tall, walking vertigo.

I blink and cannot re-open my eyes, or so it seems to me,
to others they'd be open wide - they are pure black, and I am blind.

I feel my heart stop, I pause in the gap. This is where I am at.

Not dead, not alive, not me, not myself,
Not I...

Some fantasy creature that was hiding inside, some crippled yet powerful
Wizard secret risen behind my eyes. Brought to the surface, but only for me -
I will dive to the depths as the Wizard (in other realities)
bar the twitching eyes of my shell you would think I'm asleep.

It is you, watching me dream, who is sleeping.

I have made the leap; I exist beyond imagination - a higher place beyond the skin, beyond the vibrating strings...

Beyond the daze, beyond the dream...

...

And back to consensus reality...

Who would see the Wizard if they watched me finish my pint,
stub out my hand-rolled ciggy & fold away the pen covered,
doodle intruded, newspaper?

Not one, even if they knew the Truth they couldn't see inside –
I would try to show, but do not yet exist, and so…
- the crows fly off, twisting into the sky, as I rise to leave...

I'll see you some other time,
in your dreams,
go in Peace.